Pray for Connie

I understand Connie has had her first round of chemo, and we all know how hard that can be on a person's body. I hope she, Jeffrey, and Heaven will be able to deal with these changes that are about to happen in her life. I can remember back to the first treatment Mom had, and the way it ran her poor body down. I hate this for Connie, Jeff and Heaven. This is going to be difficult for them. Connie is a strong person and she will over come this. I know GOD is a healing GOD, but without the gift GOD gave to these doctor's to be able to help other's, sometimes we need to have more than just faith that we can be healed. We have to have help from doctor's. God doesn't expect us to sit back and do nothing. If there are cure's for illnesses, we should use these resources to get better. I pray that GOD will lay his hand's on Connie's cancer and remove it from her body. People say thing's happen for a reason, but I don't believe that GOD intended for this to happen for a reason. I know there are lesson's to be learned from situation's that occur. I pray that Connie doesn't suffer in pain, that she be able to live a long life and see her daughter grow up. God is so wonderful to us and he will hear our prayers. Please everybody keep praying for Connie.

I'm Falling Apart

For the last month I have been in and out of the Doctor's office. I made me an appointment for several reason's. For the last year I have been having this problem with my left foot hurting when I walk or step the wrong way. I thought maybe I hurt it at work and it would eventually get to feeling better. It hasn't gotten better, infact it has gotten worse. I went to have it ex-rayed and my doctor said it's Plantar Fascia (heel spurs). It is not exactly in my heel, it is more on the inside of my left foot. My doctor said it was so inflammed and the spur didn't look right, so now guess where I'm headed? To an Orthopedic Surgeon, and also a therapist. I have never felt such pain in my life. My doctor stuck me three times in my foot and injected me with cortisone and a numming medicine. He tells me to not be walking on concrete or running for two week's. That's funny, because I walk at work on concrete for 8 hours everyday. My foot was feeling pretty good after the shot's I got, until I didn't listen and went for a walk on Tuesday and over- did it. Now I'm back to square one. I go Tuesday to the Orthopedic Doctor, this should be fun and costly. I also found out that my iron level is so low it's scary. I am now on a high potency iron medicine, and I'm anemic. I couldn't figure out why I was so tired all the time, and felt terrible. It seemed like every chance I got I wanted to sleep. Still dealing with my hair loss, which my doctor said number one reason for that is stress, and feeling like I'm going to have a nervous break down; I'm just not sure what else is going to go wrong with me. I have, however lost 6 pound's since my last doctor's appointment a week ago. If thing's don't improve, I guess they'll have to put me down like a dog.(ha!ha!) If anyone has any suggestion's for my foot problem, PLEASE don't hesitate to tell me. Believe me I've tried just about everything.

Missing Mom

"WISHING TO HEAR HER"

I wish to hear those word's
our MOTHER tried to say
the one she longed to speak
before she went away
oh, her eye's told the story
of her pain and misery
her smile said "please don't worry"
I'm alright you soon will see.
I wish to hear the words
my MOTHER now has to say
about a peaceful shore
and the most beautiful day
she'll tell us how our LORD
took her by the hand
to lead her as a little child
into his promise land
rejoicing with past loved ones
as they walk the street's of gold
I'd love to hear them talking
of all the HEAVEN has to hold
if she could come and see us
just one brief final time
she'd take us in her loving arm's
and say I'll be waiting for you
on the other side.

There are so many day's I wish I could just hear her voice, just a Hey it's MOM on the phone.
We just don't realize how precious her time here on earth really was, how she impacted so many people's lives. She was such a great person. She alway's put others in front of herself. Such a loving, forgiving, unselfish person. We were so lucky to have her for our Mother. My hope is that my own children can say that about me. I regret not telling her enough how much she meant to me. I will see her again, when she walk's me through HEAVEN'S gate. She will be forever missed.

Love thy Brother and Thy Sister

I sit here today after nearly a week has went by since my visit with my sister Debbie. After an e-mail from her stating she wanted to come visit me, a phone call asking me if I could meet her, and me calling her to get directions of how to get to her; Gayle and Debbie come to my house to visit.(so I thought) What started off pretty good, ended up in me finding out, she really never wanted to visit with me. Don't get me wrong, Debbie never visit's me. I was surprised that she was willing to take the time and actually come by to see me. I don't go see her because I don't have her address for one, nor an updated phone number. (until now) It is also a drive to get there. She is here in Knoxville once a month, so why not come see me? I love Debbie very much. I would like to know the resentment she is holding against me. She say's she'll get over it,but how does a person apolgize for something they don't know they've done? I am not mad at her, just hurt by the way she acted toward me in my home. I forgive her for the way she has been to me, just want her to realize she doesn't always have find the wrong in her family members, because it start's with something within herself she will have to fix. I love each and everyone of my Brothers and Sisters always.....